I haven’t written my blog in a really long time. I started the blog to keep my friends and family up to date on my health without me having to tell everyone. And honestly, I stopped because it became depressing. I didn’t want to write it so I was amazed that anyone would want to read it. So I decided I need a change.
I decided to ask the advice of the people closest to me. I have no clue why I chose the two people who don’t read the blog. Nor have shown any interest in discussing it. They both already think that they put up with me way too much. And they are happy to tell me that.
I should explain. You know those husbands that shout ‘honey I am home’ and bring flowers home every Friday. I don’t have one of those. And those best friends who greet you with a kiss on the cheek and a hug. I don’t have one of those.
My husband has a lovely habit of being distracted by the tv or the radio. As you can imagine this never, ever causes arguments. But sometimes this works to my advantage too. The first time I used this was when I wanted two rescue cats. I asked him during an England football qualifier (for………. something!) and left the house with a huge cat carrier. He still claims he had no idea that I was about to bring 2 cats home. Just as England lost. Excellent timing as always. So when I asked him about this I got the familiar ‘yes love’. He is probably now living on a knife edge wondering what he agreed to.
And then I asked my best friend. We bonded on the school run after discovering we both have very similar opinions on life. You know all those things that you think but would never ever say. Well I do say all of them, to my best friend. And the worst thing is she pretty much always agrees and has a mind that is just as messed up. I think her biggest concern is that I will be arrested or admitted to a mental health unit.
I think you would agree these expert opinions could be taken more ways than one. But I decided they were both positive so should go ahead with the new blog (Ssssh. They were positive!).
My next problem is my discovery that I am not a natural writer. You would not believe how long this has taken me. I would love to say that I slaved away for hours to get every detail right. But what happened is, after spending an hour looking for the laptop I discover it is obviously not charged. Another search ensues for the charger. I finally get the laptop plugged in and wait 10 mins for it to boot. Then I do the blog for 30 seconds and get distracted. And that’s it for another week when the same routine starts all over again.
The idea with the blog this time is to look at my life differently. I won’t lie about the fact I have been really down. And it isn’t natural for me to be like that. But this life is so much easier with a sense of humour. So instead of writing about my week. This will be more an observational take on being poorly and disabled and the things that not everyone gets to experience.
So welcome to the new look blog. I am still fighting the whole wide world. But hopefully with a smile on my face.